Since Jenny’s arrival over four months ago life has been turn on its head. My priorities have shifted and I have been wondering whether this blog has a place in this new adventure. As a working mum time is precious and seemingly scarce so adding another thing to the to-do-list needs to be weighed carefully – juggling Jenny, work, being a wife, keeping the house clean (well clean-ish at the moment), making sure we eat and have clean clothes is frankly exhausting. Yet I think for my spiritual and mental health I still need this blog- I still need to have a space to share the thoughts in my head and heart. But now I have a greater reason – I want Jenny to be able to have a legacy of testimonies of God at work in our lives. Yes, I could just keep my thoughts in a diary but I get the feeling that Jenny-bean will be more at home and comfortable with electronic (also my handwriting sucks!).
I want Jenny to know the ups and downs of my walk with God. I want her to see Him and to know Him for herself. I want God to be part of her ordinary everyday life:
Deuteronomy 6:4-9 Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God, the LORD is one. 5 Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. 6 These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. 7 Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. 8 Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. 9 Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates.
So I have started up this blog again and for the eagle eyed I have renamed it: Everyday Ebenezer. What is an Ebenezer? It is not a reference to a Charles Dickens’s character. But rather a marker or a monument that testifies to God.
1 Samuel 7:10-13 While Samuel was sacrificing the burnt offering, the Philistines drew near to engage Israel in battle. But that day the LORD thundered with loud thunder against the Philistines and threw them into such a panic that they were routed before the Israelites. 11 The men of Israel rushed out of Mizpah and pursued the Philistines, slaughtering them along the way to a point below Beth Car. 12 Then Samuel took a stone and set it up between Mizpah and Shen. He named it Ebenezer, saying, “Thus far has the LORD helped us.” 13 So the Philistines were subdued and did not invade Israelite territory again. Throughout Samuel’s lifetime, the hand of the LORD was against the Philistines.
I want this blog to be a stone, a monument to God at work. Primarily now it is a monument for Jenny. It is also a monument for me, to remind me of God’s goodness and grace in my life. But also I don’t want to hide this monument away – whoever sees this Ebenezer I pray will be pointed towards God in some way.