Yesterday a baby was dropped off in the Baby Safe and it made me feel so sad – to think how excited I am waiting for our little one to arrive when there is another mum out there struggling so badly that she see giving up her baby as the only option. She was brave to bring the baby somewhere safe, but what torment she must have been in to make that decision and how is she doing today? Will she be affirmed that she made the right choice or will she be plagued by doubt and regret? I struggle to put myself in her shoes, my heart breaks for her and the baby. Honestly my initial reaction was ‘How could a mum do that?’, but 30 secs later it turned to sorrow for the mum who thought this was the best choice and sorrow for a baby who may grow up with knowing her mum.
Life is difficult. We end up facing circumstances and choices that we never conceived of and were never prepared for. Thankfully despite our changeableness and sometime rebellion God says that He will never abandon us:
Psalms 89:30-33 If his children refuse to do what I tell them, if they refuse to walk in the way I show them, 31 If they spit on the directions I give them and tear up the rules I post for them– 32 I’ll rub their faces in the dirt of their rebellion and make them face the music. 33 But I’ll never throw them out, never abandon or disown them. (The Message)
I pray for this mum that she would know God’s faithfulness and she would know His healing after her hard choice – for the days and years that lie ahead when she second guesses her decision that she would encounter people who could bring her God’s peace.