Sometimes I just don’t get life – If understand why things happen and why something don’t happen. This weekend I was going over my notes for a class that I’m about to start teaching on Acts and came across a little verse that gave a sigh of relief. The Apostles have now spend three years in the company of Jesus, being taught, witnessing miracles and just over the past forty days the Risen Jesus has given them a refresher course on everything they ever needed to know to lead the church. Yet they ask this question:
Acts 1:6 So when they met together, they asked him, “Lord, are you at this time going to restore the kingdom to Israel?”
After all Jesus has taught them they cannot see beyond their own noses – their vision for God’s kingdom is small and their focus is inward, yet God’s vision is expansive and vast – for the whole world. I imagine at that stage Jesus would have just looked at them and said to himself ‘You have got to be kiddin!” Three years of being in the actual presence of Jesus and seeing everything he had done, having personal tuition and fellowship yet they still didn’t get it.
I’m glad that God didn’t give-up on these guys – it gives me hope for myself – the same guys went on to turn the world upside down through the church. Jesus didn’t say ‘Stop everything – I just can’t work with these people’.
When I feel myself saying ‘It’s not fair’ or ‘Why do things never work out for me?’ I aave to remind myself that God’s vision goes much further than the end of my nose. On those days I have to remind myself of the bigness of God and his power.
Job 9:4-11 His wisdom is profound, his power is vast. Who has resisted him and come out unscathed? 5 He moves mountains without their knowing it and overturns them in his anger. 6 He shakes the earth from its place and makes its pillars tremble. 7 He speaks to the sun and it does not shine; he seals off the light of the stars. 8 He alone stretches out the heavens and treads on the waves of the sea. 9 He is the Maker of the Bear and Orion, the Pleiades and the constellations of the south. 10 He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted. 11 When he passes me, I cannot see him; when he goes by, I cannot perceive him.
Lord, sometimes I just don’t get it. But even on those days I do know that I trust you. Help me Lord when I don’t see your big picture to trust you and not get myself cross-eyed studying the end of my nose.