I’m just not a hat person. Watching the royal wedding I found most of the hats very amusing. Perhaps I just don’t have the courage to go out with a giant pretzel on my head, but also I just don’t have a head for hats – too much out of control curly hair. (One old guy in the Church calls me the Wild Irish Woman – which I think is a reference to my hair – I hope!) I even remember having to make a hat in art class when I was about 13 – I made a hat with a giant leech coming out the side, so you see I don’t even have good enough taste to wear a hat in public! But there is some headwear that I appreciate – it is the headwear that God gives us. When we lost mum to suicide I wondered if we could ever recover – she was the one whom the family rotated around – the one with the mad ideas and plans. But inexplicably, under God’s hand, I can see that our family has not sat down in the ashes of mourning and stayed there. You see God is in the business of giving out headwear to that transforms us.
Isaiah 61:1-3 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, 2 to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, 3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion– to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor.
Looking back, although we are still the same motley bunch there is something beautiful that has happened to those of us who have let God take our pain. To see peace and service, joy and comfort after grief is a beautiful crown.
I have a plan for my crown through – I still don’t think I’ll ever have a head for hats, but I will cling onto it until the right time.
Revelation 4:9-11 Whenever the living creatures give glory, honor and thanks to him who sits on the throne and who lives for ever and ever, 10 the twenty-four elders fall down before him who sits on the throne, and worship him who lives for ever and ever. They lay their crowns before the throne and say: 11 “You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being.”
You see no matter how beautiful the headgear is it won’t compare to the beauty of Jesus. So I’ll cling onto my crown for now, thankful for God’s transformation from ashes to beauty, but when the time is right I think I lay it down before the One who is truly beautiful and the one who transforms us.