I wish I could click my fingers and make things better, but I’m clicking and it is not working, I am praying and nothing changes. I am an impatient person, the type of person who wants instant results. This week my hubby is still down on himself, nothing has changed – I shouldn’t really be surprised that something that has bothered him for years still bothers him, but I like to get things fixed, not to dwell on things too long. Yet this is not passing and I cannot fix it.
Everywhere I go and everything I listen to at the moment seems to be dealing with depression and how it is a normal to suffer from it at some part in a person life. The problem is that depression scares me – depression took the life of my mum- so depression and I can never be comfortable with one another. Yet fighting another person’s depression and pulling them of their desert does not work either. So as I have been reading about deserts I have decided to take a new approach:
Isaiah 43:16-19 This is what the LORD says– he who made a way through the sea, a path through the mighty waters, 17 who drew out the chariots and horses, the army and reinforcements together, and they lay there, never to rise again, extinguished, snuffed out like a wick: 18 “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. 19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.
The Israelites got stuck in the desert for 40 years before they found the way out. Their whole mission in life was to get out of the desert and they got frustrated. So instead of trying to get out of the desert and away from today I am choosing to wait and let God transform the desert like he says he will.
Isaiah 35:1-7 The desert and the parched land will be glad; the wilderness will rejoice and blossom. Like the crocus, 2 it will burst into bloom; it will rejoice greatly and shout for joy. The glory of Lebanon will be given to it, the splendor of Carmel and Sharon; they will see the glory of the LORD, the splendor of our God. 3 Strengthen the feeble hands, steady the knees that give way; 4 say to those with fearful hearts, “Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you.” 5 Then will the eyes of the blind be opened and the ears of the deaf unstopped. 6 Then will the lame leap like a deer, and the mute tongue shout for joy. Water will gush forth in the wilderness and streams in the desert. 7 The burning sand will become a pool, the thirsty ground bubbling springs. In the haunts where jackals once lay, grass and reeds and papyrus will grow.
So today I wait and see what God will do to our situation that we cannot run away from. I understand that deserts do not come into bloom quickly so the process may be long and, although my patience in short, today I choose to wait and see.