Stuck in the desert?

I wish I could click my fingers and make things better, but I’m clicking and it is not working, I am praying and nothing changes. I am an impatient person, the type of person who wants instant results. This week my hubby is still down on himself, nothing has changed – I shouldn’t really be surprised that something that has bothered him for years still bothers him, but I like to get things fixed, not to dwell on things too long. Yet this is not passing and I cannot fix it.

Everywhere I go and everything I listen to at the moment seems to be dealing with depression and how it is a normal to suffer from it at some part in a person life. The problem is that depression scares me – depression took the life of my mum- so depression and I can never be comfortable with one another. Yet fighting another person’s depression and pulling them of their desert does not work either. So as I have been reading about deserts I have decided to take a new approach:

Isaiah 43:16-19 This is what the LORD says– he who made a way through the sea, a path through the mighty waters, 17 who drew out the chariots and horses, the army and reinforcements together, and they lay there, never to rise again, extinguished, snuffed out like a wick: 18 “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. 19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.

The Israelites got stuck in the desert for 40 years before they found the way out. Their whole mission in life was to get out of the desert and they got frustrated. So instead of trying to get out of the desert and away from today I am choosing to wait and let God transform the desert like he says he will.

 Isaiah 35:1-7 The desert and the parched land will be glad; the wilderness will rejoice and blossom. Like the crocus, 2 it will burst into bloom; it will rejoice greatly and shout for joy. The glory of Lebanon will be given to it, the splendor of Carmel and Sharon; they will see the glory of the LORD, the splendor of our God. 3 Strengthen the feeble hands, steady the knees that give way; 4 say to those with fearful hearts, “Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you.” 5 Then will the eyes of the blind be opened and the ears of the deaf unstopped. 6 Then will the lame leap like a deer, and the mute tongue shout for joy. Water will gush forth in the wilderness and streams in the desert. 7 The burning sand will become a pool, the thirsty ground bubbling springs. In the haunts where jackals once lay, grass and reeds and papyrus will grow.

So today I wait and see what God will do to our situation that we cannot run away from. I understand that deserts do not come into bloom quickly so the process may be long and, although my patience in short, today I choose to wait and see.

8 Replies to “Stuck in the desert?”

  1. Thanks big bro – just waiting it out. Hope you & all the beans are well, missed you on skype the other day – was trying to get wires pulled out & plugged in but you had gone by the time I was successful! love T

  2. Hi T,
    Moved by your post. Though I’ve yet to meet Ramos please pass on my brotherly love. I too know ‘hope deferred’. But still the hope remains unshaked, with all its weight pressing on your heart.

    ‘To Be’

    A Poem (AMcQ 19th May 2005)

    There is a place I need to be, to Be, to BE
    To be in a place and no longer need
    To be; satisfied, content, at peace, quiet as I ought
    To be and being in that place where I ought and need
    To be in no others’ place but mine
    To be in no others’ space, being in my best place
    I no longer need to be, but I am being

  3. I can understand your fears, and so I am even more affected by your words of truth and honesty and yieldedness here. My husband went through a deep depression a few years ago, after many years of my chronic illness finally wore down his hope that things would get better. Medication helped. But ultimately, it was God who reached down into that dark place and rescued him from the pit. I love the verses you’ve chosen here. I have held on to them myself. Here’s one that I can honestly say is true about that time in our lives:

    “Praise be to the LORD, for he showed his wonderful love to me when I was in a besieged city.” Psalm 31:21

    Praying for you and your husband today.

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