I’m not great at languages but today I am tired, baie moeg, ndatopa – no matter which way you look at it I’m pooped! It has not been a particularly hectic week so I don’t know why I’m so tired. One theory is that the sun is up so early here in Cape Town that I’m not getting enough sleep – I wish we had blackout curtains and a mute button for those happy twittering birdies. My husband’s theory is that I’m tired because I’m stressed by waiting – we are waiting on important documents so we can put in an offer on a house. I’m wondering if Ramos is right (don’t tell him please!) – sometimes it feels like standing still makes you more tired than moving forward. There is something exhilarating about movement even when you are tired.
Isaiah 40:28-31 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. 29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. 30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
It’s funny when I read these verses I often think that it is the soaring on the wings of the dove and the running that God uses to renew our strength. Sitting still is draining, but jumping on a bike and whizzing down a hill certainly wakes you up and energises you. Often when we feel tired it feels like if we could sleep a week things would be better, but actually if we would just take a walk, roll down a hill, kick the waves at the beach we would be renewed and energised.
So today I still wait, but my waiting will not be the passive draining kind, where life stands still until I get what I’m waiting for. Instead I will wait with the eagles, being renewed for the next stage He has prepared for me.